Every new semester or year I tell myself, “This is it … you’re going to work hard and get to where you need to be. No more hesitations”. I want to laugh at myself as I start to think like that. It all goes well for the first month or so but then I get lazy and go back to square one. I don’t know what will make this time different but I am really hoping to prove myself wrong.
I feel like the past few years I’ve been very disappointed at myself. The lack of motivation and direction in my life should not exist. I am not the person that I thought I would be by now. Whenever things get tough or I sense change, I would suddenly want to give up. This is not me. I want to chase after what makes me happy and not runaway from any challenges.
So, let’s try this again.